Possession!

Yesterday, we took possession of our house. Our house! I'm so excited that we've finally purchased, closed, and taken possession on our very first home. The home where our baby (and probably more) will come home to. The home where we will spend the next few years, building our lives.

Our home.

There's a ton of work to be done. We painted the living room and demo-ed the staircase yesterday. Sean and his dad our rebuilding it today (after an $800 trip to Home Depot), along with rewiring the basement laundry room to support our new dryer.

We really want to move in the next week, so apologies if it gets a little quiet around here. We're spending all of our free time painting! And our new house is internet (ugh and 4G) free, so we're kind of at a loss for anything past text messages while we're there. Hopefully we pick it up quick!

Baby's Heartbeat - 16 Weeks.

We've heard the heartbeat of our little one twice now. Last time, at our 16 week appointment on August 2nd, I recorded it. I wanted to be able to share this awesome experience and having such a cool momento. I've never used iMovie before, so created a video with it was slightly frustrating, but I think it works as a method to transfer the sound to you!

16 Weeks.

How far along: 16 weeks.

Size of Baby: An avocado.

Weight Gain: +7 lbs

Symptoms: Still tired legs. I've been breaking out again too, which BLOWS. 

Exercise: The weekly photos are totally doing a number on my self esteem. So I've started doing some arm workouts. My belly might be huge, but maybe I'll get my arms in tip top shape!

Clothes: No changes. Still in maternity pants and regular shirts.

Cravings/Aversions: None lately. I've been getting myself back on healthy foods, so it's really helping any cravings I was having. Just need to keep it up!

Movement: Nope. 

Worries: House buying. And Sean. Sean's taking the bar this week, which means he's in Jefferson City. As far as the house goes, I feel like every time I turn around they need a new piece of paperwork. It's driving me crazy!

Boy/Girl: Again, no idea. Though, I'm kind of finding myself hoping for a girl lately. I won't be disappointed either way!

Milestones: Baby's got bones!! 

Best moment of the week: Sean being done with the BAR exam. He finished on Wednesday night, and it's so wonderful to know that he's done. Now we just have to wait for the results.

15 Weeks.

Yup, I'm still behind. I promise to get caught up this week!

How far along: 15 weeks.

Size of Baby: An orange.

Weight Gain: +7. At least I'm holding steady at a pound a week? Oof.

Symptoms: I felt myself get a stretch mark this week. I need to be a little heavier on the lotion application apparently!

Exercise: Packing and more packing. That's exercise, right?

Clothes: Still solidly maternity. A few of my shirts (mostly my work shirts) are starting to get short. As I grow out of them, I'm packing them up into my tub of pre-pregnancy clothes.

Cravings/Aversions: Fruit and cheese.

Movement: Nope. But I'm totally freaked out that there's the possibility that I could feel movement at any time. I'm going to feel like Predator or something.

Worries: Packing, buying a house, Sean taking the bar, and the busy time of the year is totally edging out any baby worries right now.

Boy/Girl: No clue.  Frankly, I'm just going to be glad there's only one baby, judging by my belly's size.

Milestones: Baby can move its arms and legs!

Best moment of the week: We had friends over for dinner. It's been awhile since we've done that, and I forget how much I actually love it.

Self Image.

Lately, I'm having a really hard time with my self image. I've always been critical of myself, but at the same time, I've always worked past it. I've always been confident regardless of my looks.

But right now?

That's not the case.

I'm in that awkward stage between fat and pregnant. I feel like I've got an extra layer of blubber chilling  around my belly and love handles, and I feel like my arms have lost any definition they had. My legs hurt because of it. I'm more tired because of it. I keep reading that people don't start gaining weight until their 20+ weeks, and here I am up almost 10 lbs at 15 weeks (but I wasn't sick at the beginning).

I know that I'm gaining weight for the baby. I know that my belly weight IS the baby. I know that I have water weight going on. Hell, I know that I should lift some arm weights.

But man.

I just want to reach the stage of rounding out and actually looking pregnant. Not like an overinflated blow up doll.

Don't people say pregnant people glow? Where IS that? I feel like my self image right now is worse than its ever been, when I have every reason to look the way I do.

I'm blaming these stupid hormones.